Welcome to my blog, sweet Mama! I am happy you are here. 10 years ago, I was spending many hours trying to find a blog, study guide, program, answers, just something, anything, to help me through postpartum depression, anxiety and intrusive thoughts. I felt lost, alone and scared. I hope and pray that if you are walking a similar path as I did, searching the web over and over for answers or direction, that you will come across this page.
I am a 38-year-old wife and mom. Married to my high school sweetheart. We have 3 kiddos and lots of farm babies. I’m a follower of Christ, Registered Nurse, and lover of all things crafty. I’m a go-getter with tons of determination, but even with tons of determination I can easily get overwhelmed and paralyzed with the to-do list. I fly by the seat of my pants and love being active. I volunteer, sing, dance, play outdoors, act silly and do fun things with my kids. I absolutely love life. All of these things are naturally who I am…. that was until one day when my world was shaken.
I was 29 years old, 36 weeks pregnant and over the moon excited to be welcoming our baby girl. I was crafting a DIY church activity felt book for my two boys when it hit me. It took me by complete surprise. A thought. One single negative scary thought. It had to have come from the ridiculous news I had just watched, but it stopped me in my tracks. From there a surge of emotions came over me. Emotions I wasn’t familiar with. Sadness, disconnection, uncertainty, doom, fear and more. Soon physically symptoms started, and I was then a complete mess. This was the start of my experience with PPD and PPA, which lasted months ahead.
PPD and PPA was a phase in life that I will never forget. It was scary because I felt alone. I couldn’t fully share what I was thinking or going through to family and friends because of fear. I want you to know that you ARE NOT ALONE. You, Momma, are amongst thousands of others who experience a similar journey during motherhood. The scared, anxious, sad, empty, and unsure feelings will NOT last forever. It’s hard to see even the tiniest speck of light when you’re in the thick of it, but it is there. You will get back to yourself. It will take time, it will take patience, it will take some work, and it might take some extra help, but YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
If you are searching for help, connection and Christian guidance from a fellow Mom – then please take a look at my 14-day study. This study is interactive one-on-one with me and in a private group along with other Moms like you, who are reading this very page. Only 15 spots are available with each program start. You can find additional information by clicking the button “PPD/PPA Program” located in the upper right corner.
I’m here for you. From my Momma heart to yours,
Shanna – Postpartum Depression Mama
Postpartum Depression and Anxiety Mama 